Ode to Continual Loss
posted May 11, 2010
1.
Finally, this plainness
I play host to. Play inside.
I could have sworn my
true purpose was to silently
lug the remnants of a city
around the world with me.
Yet, for now, I can believe
my life is big without
getting comparative or superlative,
can’t anyone?
Or, too,
I have had to bury
some of my homes.
2.
Did I mention that I grew?
That I began to take care?
Whatever I could have said in prayer,
wouldn’t it have been the same as anybody? As garbled
from any second tongue phrase book?
Dear God:
Where is the bathroom?
What is the special of the day?
3.
Eventually a boy was born unto me.
I recognized him.
He was my city and he is
my city and that
is not always fair.
How one habitates,
runs around making.
A city was born unto me.
Hypnotic boy happening
by with his dead father’s nose.
by with his missing uncle’s wavy hair.
My city is my exact same eyes
looking elsewhere. A mother’s
trained hushing. A boy
who has borrowed nothing.
A son was citied unto me.
He moves forward to where
I have always and never lived.
4.
Dear God,
I am sorry that I get bored.
I love those trees.
Where are we?
5.
Plus I like to slip my hand inside
pockets of coats in the thrift store.
Tall aisle of pockets. A subway token,
a neatly folded prescription slip.
A body lives inside a single day, then
The finished days file one by one
to live inside the barracks of a body.
There’s a turf war on.
©
Ghost Fargo, Upon Arrival, How Birds Work, and Two Museums, and the co-author of Or Else What Asked The Flame. Ghost Fargo was selected by Franz Wright for the 2008 Nightboat Poetry Prize.
is the author ofWe’ve published four more poems by Cisewski: “Thanks, Nebraska,” “Having to do With the Manner in Which we Transport Night,” “from The Poor Choruses,” and “The Museum of Natural Science.”